Guides to Self-Love
June 16, 2014
The following article is from a participant of one of my courses
called, “Relentless Self-Love!” In this course, the participants daily are doing the meditation “Breaking
the Mask,” (www.SoulAnswer.com/break_mask.html ), and reading the articles that precede each class. Then they are to spend time with their own Divine Soul, their
most cozy and Real Self (www.SoulAnswer.com/soul.html ) to get Its answer on one question each week before class. Then they report that answer.
It is truly apparent that our Soul’s really do give us the very most personal wisdom, love and guidance to
heal ourselves and move to the next step of freedom, joy and self/Self Love! Soul’s answer to each of our students
was so inspiring and expressing Truth in each person’s particular situation. But I just want you to hear Rachel’s
Soul’s answer from this week. Maybe it will help you, and it would be great if you actually asked your own Soul
this question to get the best answer for you!
The question posed for
Soul for this week is:
What difficulty did you find lurking within
that keeps you from loving yourself? What was the root cause? How does Soul lead you to heal it?
Rachel’s Soul’s Answer is:
The difficulties do all stem from the same place, though they manifest differently. They all have to
do with a panicked striving on my part to keep circumstances right and people happy so that I’m not abandoned, but also
so that I’m not attacked, as my mother did for years and as I experienced in relationships as well as in current struggles
with my partner’s ex-wife.
But the attacks also have to do with abandonment,
or more accurately, Soul has told me they have to do with a LACK of love. This is what we all want--to feel love. It’s
what we are made of and from where life itself springs. Love that is pure never feels bad or intends to injure or assault.
Love intends joy. Love is awe and respect and hope.
As I sank into the
comfort of Soul, I felt so soothed and cradled by the most loving part of myself, the wisest part of myself. I also felt guides
(Guru Ram Das, Yogi Bhajan, Baba Siri Chand, Adi Shakti/Divine Mother) present. I’ve had this experience with
myself before…it’s as if the Rachel who is present has all of the answers….or more accurately, has the
She has a simplicity, a largeness, and a goodness that is
indestructible, not in that she wears armor, but that she just is what she is. A Goddess, I want to say, who has lived for
eons and has an eternity about her that is awe-inspiring. In her presence, I feel like a child who has become distracted
with details, who has taken those details and played with them like toys that matter and furiously tried to turn them into
something that matters in an attempt to stave off attacks from my mother.
image of myself is so dead on, so accurate, and Soul giggled with me a little bit over the silliness of the image. Slight
sadness sets in that I’ve allowed this to happen, but Soul cuddles me and reminds me that it’s part of the learning
process—that making these mistakes is like experimentation with the world around me. It’s OK, Soul says. Make
a mess! It’s nothing we can’t clean up. In fact, we don’t have to clean it up. We can just BE differently.
At this point, I understand these images and metaphors, but I ask Soul, “HOW? How
do I BE differently and how do I do that consistently?” Soul IMMEDIATELY says, “Keep your dates with me!!”(Dates
with Soul are times sitting and conversing with Soul.) I acknowledge that consistency with our time together and maintaining
the connection with Soul, the guides, and Consciousness is something I’ve lacked.
“You get it backwards,” Soul says, “When you lose connection.” Backwards meaning I
reverse responsibility…the world, others, circumstances become responsible. If I come from Soul, as the reading
(the text for this particular class) says, everything changes. It’s the consistency that needs work. “If you exist
in flawless, consistent, and complete love, no attack matters,” Soul says. “Build your world on a foundation of
love, not fear,” Soul says.
I rest in this for a while and forgive myself
for the childishness and give myself room to grow...as I do this, there is a simultaneous letting go of a part of my identity
that believes it lives a life under attack. This is a dearly held story, and I see clearly that it is time to say goodbye.
At this point, I don’t know quite where to begin this new self-building, and Soul
reminds me to “allow and love.” She says, “Joy is medicine,” and that if I am no longer maintaining
defenses against the next onslaught, then I will have more room to immerse in that joy. “No more sleeping with one eye
open,” she says. “See all that is beautiful around you and treasure the love you have found in others and in yourself
and in your guides.”
I was then guided to do focused heart breath (www.SoulAnswer.com/heart_breath.html ) toward two particular individuals whom I perceive as hostile. The heart breath felt different than usual….sometimes,
I feel a sense of my chest caving in….but this time, it felt like a pump that was very supported by my abdomen. I could
almost see the bright air coming into my nose, chest, lungs, stomach, and then my diaphragm, firmer than usual, sort of pumped
the air out of my heart center, but as it left, it left in an upward angle. I felt these individuals very near to me, and
I kept up the heart breath until it felt appropriate to stop.
After my meditation
was complete, I asked Soul why these individuals are brought to me over and over, and Soul responded, “So that you can
perfect your love.” I feel that this is a great honor, that this would be my task.
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